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Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Anxiety Over A Decision

Why is it I labor, I dwell, I sweat, lose sleep, lose appetite over deciding what monologue to audition with? It seems every audition that calls for a one - two minute contemporary monologue sends me into a state of stricken panic. Thoughts rush through my head like freight trains: "The right piece doesn't exist!" --> "Nothing is good enough!" --> "Why doesn't anyone write anything good?"

Ridiculous thoughts. But at the moment they seem so real and true. In the end I always find something suitable, strong, and fitting for the character's requirements. But in the inbetween......I lose my mind.

I have been meaning to, for some time, to craft a handful of monologues, polish them to a place nearing perfection, and have them ready at the bat at any time, at any chance meeting. And yet, I haven't done it. Why not?

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